Outside the window, it began to rain,

When i saw your reply on the facebook,

suddenly the memory flooded back in.

You've been always like that,

since I was fifth grade.

I wrote a short artile thanking everyone

who has helped me in a way or another for my preparation of the grad school.

Of course, Prof.Shukai, Melfish, Vicky, David and so on whoever saying, "Cheers" to me I'm grateful to.

I didn't thank u, why, of course, you did nothing on this.

I love my Bro so much, but even him I did not thank.

Should I thank every teacher I've ever had just because I got the admission of grad school?

Why should I on the earth thank you?

Then you complained I didn't thank u.

After that, just in case he didn't tell you his results of grad school entrance exams,

as a good friend of his, I told you. I left a note on the facebook.

I was just being kind.

And I told you that both he and I miss the time when we had BBQ in front of your house.

I said I missed the time very much.

I was expecting a delightful or at least warm reply from you.

However, you replied that you didn't blame him for not telling you.

You said even I and others didn't take the initiative telling you which school we got.

Oh yeah? You didn't blame him?

But your words clearly demonstrated your blame to everyone including him!

What is your logic?

I have so many teachers, so many friends, so many beloved ones.

Should I call everyone and tell him/her that I got the admission to a grad school?

I chose to release this news via FB cuz I know most of my beloved ones are facebook users, hey, including you.

I just had no clue where your blame came from.

The memory flooded back in,

when I was in fifth or sixth grade.

We had this "Mood Book" to write down what we felt.

I wrote pages of sth that I was excited about, about my single-sided object.

At the end, I wrote, I couldn't tell you whom my best friend secretly loved

because she and I had a deal that I couldn't tell "別人"

Your reply.

Your reply ignored the pages i wrote about who I liked,

ignored the news I shared with you.

You just replied, "我不是'別人'！"

I was perplexed when I read your comment.

By "別人" I meant anyone other than me and the friend.

Wasn't that the general definition of "別人"？

Could you understand that was a  disappointment to a little girl as I was.

Looking forward to read your comment on my sharing of who I liked,

I only got your angry comment...

Now I've grown up.

I wouldn't feel sorry or sad because of your comment,

cuz I realized that was your fault, not mine.

I wasn't wrong. You're indeed a "別人"

Besides, I wasn't in the postion to tell you.

If my friend wanted you to know, she would have told you herself.

This time your reply made me wanna fight back, at least justify myself.

So i explained, i only thanked those who had helped with my preparation.

If there was a prize for me being a man of integrity, i would thank you for that.

You said you know that, it's just that your pride 在作祟.

而我只想說：呿！